i haven't written a post in while so i'll try to let you know about what is going on now.  i've been doing pretty good lately, so to speak.  i'm sleeping good and i've got things to do.  i don't know.  i don't have a burning urge to say anything though.  nothing is bothering me so much that i need to tell the world about it, you know?  going to the Roger Waters concert next Tuesday night, which i have first hand account testimony is an AWESOME show.  a very special soul and FLOYD fan i know saw the show Saturday night near Indianapolis and said that it changed her life.  i'm going with the last two best friends i've made in my life, Steve and Shannon from Santa Cruz.  GONNA BE A HELLAVA NIGHT, at a minimum for at least being able to hang out with these 2 guys.  we used to have some good times in The Cruz...

the weather has changed in just the past 3 or 4 days and it is supposed to rain tomorrow.  can't wait to walk in the cemetery and smell the rot of the leaves and the verdant soil.  the only thing that is a problem right now is that i can't discipline enough of my time aside for the writing for my novel.  next month Nanowrimo starts again, you know, the write a 50,000 word novel in 30 days.  i was unable to wrap my mind around it last year, and now this year i have too many things going on to be able to do it, i think.  i don't know...  maybe stopping meds for a month so i could DO EVERYTHING?  nah, thats not a good idea...

i dunno, something is just out of place right now.  i like the things i am doing but i don't think i am happy.

I know what you mean about not being able to wrap your mind around things. I've been trying to write a poem and/or song a day but it's not working right now for some reason. For a few months I was pushing out 3 to 4 poems a day. Now I'm lucky to even write one every 2 days. Must be something in the air...or these sinus issues...lol. Have fun at the concert next week.

smiles to you.
Ok, my son came in, and I forgot what I was going to write.
Son pointed at your pic and asked if you were Earl. Once I explained to him you weren't the guy from the t.v. show.
He asked me many questions.
Yes, son I like him. He makes me smile and laugh.
No, son he lives far away in a totally different state.
There are times I hate the word why?
I visit his site because he has the same mental illness that I have son.
You know when all those times mommy stays in bed cause she isn't feeling good. Well, I'm the not the only that gets sick and stays in bed for days.
OH. ???? Hmm
ok that will be something to talk with my councilor friday.
I haven't been able to remember what I was going to say before son came in so.
Hope your not running yourself ragged.
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I often feel the same way, not happy not sad, just "here". Trying to wade through the trials of daily life hoping to find my reason for being here.

I LOVE to walk through cemetaries. Not to smell rot though!:) Just to look at the stones and imagine what those peoples lives were like.