maybe it is just November rolling around, some form of regeneration or rebirth or cleansing that i need to go through this time of year, but i am feeling like stopping the meds again.  when i did it last year i felt so great, and there was no collapse at the end, remember?  i just restarted because of how my pdoc threatened to NOT treat me if i continued to take nothing.  the way i feel now though, i am starting to get sluggish again, and well, we are just 3 days away from the end of DST, and i know the shorter days will only add to my potential depression.  not a good thing.  i am so inspired emotionally and psychically now to be doing my school work, the library work (and even applying for that PAYING job) but my body is just not feeling strong enough with this poison shit in me.  sleeping too much for one thing, and can't control it.  anyway, just wanted to kick this post out quickly, and wanted to mention too that i have made contact with a very cool writer-person that is into goth/metal music and lives in the east bay.  we are talking about going to some shows togeher.  how about that for a HELL-YEAH!

(((oh, and i scored a video ipod.  i'm giving my old 20gb mp3 player to my son Billy in Ireland for his birthday.  told my mom that i'd load it up with sermons for him to listen to, and his favorite music... but that if i didn't have one for myself anymore i'd lose my mind.  i'm paying her for it, but she ordered it on her Dell account for me.  check it out! http://accessories.us.dell.com/sna/productdetail.aspx?c=us&l=en&cs=19&sku=A0587179)))

Hey,
I hope you keep feeling so good, don't know what to tell you about stopping the meds. I hope if you do you wont crash. I have stopped them before & sometimes I wonder if they were doing any good when I was on them, lol.
That looks like a cool ipod. Glad you was able to get one, & it's nice you're giving your son the old one.
Hope you have a great day!!!

Hi Jamie, thanks for commenting. Yeah, I will be careful and titrate slowly off the stuff, no more slam-bang cold-turkeys for me, which is what i did last year, and it actually worked ok. I hope that what is happening is that I am building an overall better attitude towards just living my life right that is happening. Thus, not so much need for dependency on the meds needed anymore? I hope? and yeah, I'm loading up the mp3 player for Billy with sermons and Christian rock bands; all the stuff he is really into! goodluck with your teams this weekend!

You're probably feeling so good BECAUSE of your medication! That's a sign that it's working! Please don't go off when you're doing so well...just think about it, k? :-)

Hi Sunflower, I know that is the accepted theory and I think I'm pretty in check with having this reaction of sensitivity to how my body feels. I knew for a fact that after taking Lithium for 5+ years it had become toxic in my body and my body intuitively instructed me to STOP using it. After I detoxed from it I felt wonderful. (I did replace the Lith with Lamictal, too though...) Anyway, right now I am moving slowly with this decision. Right now I've just cut back to half dosages... and already feel much more alive and refreshed. :)

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